Monday, November 29, 2010

wuss yet fuss

Lately I've put on some office weight which doesn't bother me at all. I've been chubby since I could remember. I wish I lived in the Tang dynasty because it's said that plump women back then were very popular and I could be a dream girl.^^

My friend told me that he was leaving Shenzhen and was making a farewell video. I understand. This city is regarded as my home but I also feel like steering clear of everything here for a while and explore something new in somewhere else. Explore how and where to? It's a question but someone mentioned Au Pair jobs. I might give it some thoughts.

This time last year I was having fun with D in Beijing. We were a happy couple and secretly I thought that we'd spend the rest of our lives together. But now, we're ocean apart and unlikely to meet up in the future. It was devastating but I'm moving on. How many things would change in one year? I have no idea.

However, I do realize that I've really been spoiling myself lately - went for an exam without any revision, had whatever food I wanted, terminated my internship and booked my flights to travel without informing anyone. These actions might have unintended consequences that will make my life strange, difficult but interesting. But I'll keep going and trust myself.

"We don't know the future but what we do now is a part of the future" - it's what my dear friend Amanda said to me. It always stuns me that we could actually make good friends via Internet. I'm visiting Shanghai again in December and gonna crash at Sharon's place who I met on Friendfeed. In fact I've made quite a few friends on that site and we even pulled off a gifts swaping not long ago.

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satoshi said...

that's not spoiling, but just following your intuition. :)

Some of older folks like myself did not completely follow own intuition earlier but listen to other people voice, causing lot of mess. Learn from us. :D


SHUO said...

Thanks, Satoshi-sang.^^

We should share the same culture background, so I believe you could relate to my situation. When we make decisions, we barely put ourselves first. Instead, we do things that are "sensible" to others.

It's kinda ingrained, to be honest. But I'm trying my best to live a life I feel comfortable with.

Michemily said...

I am so so so sorry that I have no idea about au pairs in Germany. By googling it you can find a few companies, but otherwise I'm completely in the dark! I think being an au pair is a great way to immerse yourself in a culture, though. Studying is also a great way to go. I loved the University of Leipzig! Good luck!

LNFAW said...

Gabrielle Evelyn said...

Hehe,I think there must be lots of fun in your trips,right?

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